Saturday, December 30, 2006
::IVP::
I finally decided to go back to TKD today after being lazy for 2 trainings. I guess they really need people to form the IVP pattern team since they are encouraging many of us to take part. I rejected them because I felt that my results were really shitty this time. Not that it's extremely bad but when compared to others in my course, it's VERY lousy. Anyway the senior kept asking us for our reasons of not wanting to join so I said that I fear that I can't commit to the many days of practise and my grades are really bad and I am not good enough to be in the team. Somehow I felt he thought I was giving a lame excuse. Anyway when he asked Judy she didn't think for a second before saying 'same' [meaning same reason as me]. I thought that was kinda funny. But he seemed to be pressing us for a reason so I had no choice but to say the reason that I really didn't want to say: "I also don't think I can perservere that long in TKD to take part in IVP." So he said if we joined IVP we would want to stay in TKD more... but he was too busy trying to recruit other people to continue what he wanted to say. I guessed he must have felt sian-ed. =X
But on my way home today Wan Tin kind of managed to persuade me to join IVP. However, I already strongly expressed my unwillingness to join to the senior and the Chairperson [cos she was the one who asked us if we went for the pattern selection]. It's like being really stupid to change my mind. I guess studies shall be my 1st priority next semester.
I need to stop doing nonsense stuff in hall or at home!
