Tuesday, April 26, 2005
::arcane::
I can't even remember when was the last time I blogged or even when was the last time I visited my friend's blog. Somehow or another, I have been racing against time to get my homework done. There's still quite a lot of stuff that I have not completed. This month is coming to an end soon, along with all the good things that come along with it.
The weather has been so hot and stuffy nowadays. Almost every morning I will wake up sweating like a pig. Is it summer already?
Countless events happened over the month. There are certain things that I try so hard to achieve but all the effort came to naught. My studies are one of those things. Certain friendships that I try to build will never go past the surface. Maybe I should concentrate more on people that are closer to me and are threatening to drift away should I neglect them. Some people I have not had a decent talk in days. I realise that so many of my friends are talking in riddles. I don't understand what they are trying to tell me, and they don't quite get me either. We don't really talk about these things when we meet so the thing it that we have no idea what is going on. Maybe I am the one speaking in riddles.
SYF is coming soon. 3rd of May. I don't know what to expect. Somehow, I feel that I feel more for the orchestra as compared to the others that are competing. Somehow, I feel that our conductor is just a pain in the arse. I have grown to dislike him, especially after what I heard from my friends yesterday. Maybe my analysis about his behaviour is totally wrong. I don't know. The sight of him just irks me, as do so many other sickening grown ups. Or should I just keep that to most of the sickening teachers? But I guess everyone like to push the blame around. Who likes to carry that heavy burden of facing the music? So I guess one day, people of my age now will grow to hate me as well. So while I still can grumble about adults, I should make full use of it. Childish? Yes. But it's good to be childish for awhile.
Every single day, I heard my brother argue with my parents. He just don't appreciate it. I hate him, I sure do. It makes me mad when they are bickering. And everytime it's over small, trival issues. That's why I prefer to stay outside. Of course I still like my home, I just hate to hear people shouting and screaming at each other. It creates a non-conducive environment to be in, just like what happens in my tuition centre every Saturday. Bascially, those 2 people just don't know how to shut up.
Been reading The Rule of Four for the past 2 days. I learnt something. It's better to love something that will love you in return. Otherwise, you will be just wasting your time and effort.
