Thursday, November 11, 2004
::shadows of a man::
My gwad!! I think I really am very outdated. I just realised today that Westlife had just released their new album!!! Now what is it called? Allow us to be Frank! What a name for an album. Now they are trying out jazz. Quite cool. Just heard a preview of the song on their site. Perhaps I will get it tomorrow or Saturday. And then there's Britney Spears album.. her greatest hits. It was released on September!!!! Oh my goodness!!!! Why didn't I see it in stores??? And I still have not gotten her In the Zone yet. So to remind myself, let me write down my wishlist.
1. Allow us to be Frank - Westlife
2. Greatest Hits: My Prerogative CD & DVD - Britney Spears
3. In the Zone - Britney Spears
4. For someone in my family to get the new generation iPod
5. A decent tooth brush holder
6. New clothes. [The mango tee in particular]
7. The Sims 2 Strategy Guild
What else? I still want to modify my PS2. And I may want to get The Urbz, Sims in the City. I only know it's on console [PS2, XBOX and Nintendo GameCube] and handheld [GBA] but it's not on PC from what I gather. I don't think I can play if it's on PS2. Cos my PS2 is NTSCJ!!! ARGH!!!!! I want to modify it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I should never have gotten it from Sony [as in in the Sony shop]. Anyway, there was Singapore Idol today was usual. I think almost all the performances were terrible, except for Olinda's 2nd song. I can't remember the title already. I only know it was done by Coco Lee. My mom [and I] thought that Olinda's rendition of Teresa Teng's song was absolutely terrible. She can't do mandrain songs. It will just kill her. She [mom] even claimed that she could sing better. And she totally disagreed with what the judges said about making all the uncles and aunties happy because she wasn't one of them. And my sister added that making them happy would not make any difference since they wouldn't bother to vote for you. And Daphne was really bad this time. She really can't do chinese songs. My sister was absolutely disgusted. She said Daphne did so badly that she wanted to throw shit at her face. AWWWWW. [Luckily my taggie was gone long ago]. And seriously, what do people see in Slyvester anyway? He can't really sing and isn't really that cute. And the judges. I think they really ran him down. Taufik is okay though. We were guessing the words or sounds he was going to 'make' during the song. Except my sister just thought he lacked the X-Factor for an idol. But Olinda is still the best. I kind of hope that she would win. My sister said she could see the look of fear all over her face during her performance just now. Not stage fright [how can it be?] but fear that she will get kicked out tomorrow. And looking back at last week..... Am I being too mean here? I don't think so. It's just my own opinion and other people's opinions and I am just writing it down. That's the purpose of this place. To note down my thoughts and feelings. But nowadays it seems to me that expressing yourself is getting really difficult. Telling your innermost feelings to others scares them away. And is America really going to totally do away with gay marraiges?? I was reading Newsweek yesterday and came across one such article. People say they can accept such marraiges/unions. But is that really true? If your friend invites you to his/her gay wedding, how will you react? Will you really just accept without a single thought that it is not possible? I mean, you might accept it, but what is your initial reaction to it? For the happiness of your friend, you will give them your blessings.. but. I was doing this project for almost half a year, but I still don't know if I find such behaviour acceptable. I mean, I managed to convince myself that they are just like you and me, normal people. But deep down inside. It's not that way. I hope I don't sound like a homophobe. Because I don't think I am one. How should I put it. It's a complicated feeling. I accept, but I cannot totally accept. That's not only true for this issue. Many other issues as well. I mean, it is really hard to accept something wholeheartedly. I wonder how many people can accept each other/thing/issue wholeheartedly. Even when one has given up, resigned to fate, I think somewhere inside, he still wants to try again. Is that not true? How extreme can one get? There can't be an exact yes or no for everything. Is there?
